Sunday, August 22, 2021

There are a few people out there who have Changed me and the way I see the World.

Black coffee daze For those of you who have survived a lot I know your not ready to lie down on this covid and give up. Many of my very close friends do not believe in the Vacine and it is not FDA approved. I want to know more. There must be somone out there with the info. What makes the Corona Virus go Dormant. Well I think it is the lack of sugars or yeast from the amout of time it took me to repel this horriable virus when I finally cut the trash out of my diet I had sweet RELIEF No more inflamation. But is that a quincidence? Cancer and Candida both grow exponentially when you are eating a lot of sugar So you must CUT THE Feeding off Maybe even Fasting if you are able I am not able to fast. Sugar feeds the Virus Sugar feeds the cancer Sugar Feeds the Candida Feed a fever Feed the Fever Feed it NOW They say its actually the opposite starve the fever FR FR Gotta Starve the COld starve a cold starve the cold ITS the actually the opposite Feed the cold But how Gotta fast a cold fast a cold fast that cold ketones are the key GOtta find a Way A better way PUT down that snickers bar B00 No more sugar in my coffee No more sugar in my tea gotta heal this world togeather For the Bacteria Protien fat good glucose and carbs are bad FOr the virus Protiens and fats will kill you Carbs and gluecose will save you https://www.theatlantic.com/science/archive/2016/09/glucose-inflammation/498965/ https://www.theatlantic.com/science/archive/2016/09/glucose-inflammation/498965/ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JH5eptOeYTc

Monday, August 2, 2021

Seizure Prone

This morning I had a seizure. Its been oct 2017 since seizure almost 5 years. I woke up my husband said I was  screaming in my sleep. It lasted 30 seconds. I have been struggling with a massive sinus infection. My house has mold in a spare bedroom. Stress is a major factor as well. My current job I have been struggling to get my work done and lack of proper training is made it stressful work environment. Unable to get a good paying job in my area. Shitty internet slows the chances  to get an online opportunities. I was out of CBD and I took my self off my meds Carbamazapine  5 months ago. I also got the Pfizer vaccine last week and it said that it didn't have any heavy metals which are known to cause seizures and I looked up the other ingredients but I didn't see anything that was linked to epilepsy. I've been drinking turmeric in my coffee as well as cacao to bring down the cortisol levels when I wake up. I was on my period so I feel like unchecked hormones are the culpret. Which has been known to cause seizures. Estrogen and Cortisol.  Seizures also seem to be after I have been constipated. I guess toxic foods can build up in the system and without releasing those toxins it is hard to detox. Work place bullying is a real problem too I know people don't mean to take out  problems on each other in most cases. But snickering and laughing at your coworkers is stressful especially when you are trying to learn. I recently saw a fellow co worker crying and she would not tell me why. Never ending battle with no healthcare 

Thursday, July 8, 2021

Revamped Shows 2021

I am excited to say several of my favorite shows are coming back Dexter and Leverage . 
So the new season of Leverage is one Character short and I AM QUITE CONTRARY ABOUT IT. Despite the most awesome end of Leverage we will not get back the main character. Spoiler Alert
 I like the new season even without Nate. As for Dexter its not out yet. But the end of that show Spoiler is terriable !! The writers were clearly vexed when writing that ending but they are giving us another go. I know some of the cast is coming back but they are dead in the original so it must be them haunting him. His Dark Passenger as they call Harry from the original series. His twisted father or adopted father who tried and ultimately lost the battle much like his mother. 

So we can't wait to see what happens!! 

Tuesday, July 6, 2021

Grandma always says

Grandma always said 
If you don't have any thing nice to say 
Then don't say anything at all. 

Grandma always said treat people better than they have treated you.

Grandma always said,
I Love you. 

Grandma always said, 
You want to help Grandma make a an apple pie.

Grandma always said 
Did you read the ingredients on that?

Momma always said 
Don't be vengeful.

Momma Always said 
That's Right!! 
 
Momma Red Always said;
Let sleeping Dogs lye.

Momma Red always said 
Don't look a gift horse in the mouth.

Momma Red Always said 
If you love someone tell them that every day.

Step Momma always says
 Bad Association Spoils useful Habits 1 Corinthians 15:33

Maw Maw always says 
Rebuke the negative !! 

Gram Always sends 
Angels to watch over you! 

Granny always says
Don't keep all your eggs on one basket. 



Silent Generation Great Grandma 
Eye for an eye 

Turn the other cheek. 

Don't be chasing butterflies. 











Tuesday, May 11, 2021

Hello World Here are some of the artistic Endeavors I have been working on. Tarot Scope I also love astrology here is a little info about this months Astrolgy

Saturday, March 21, 2020

Were Not going to lie down and die !


So this is a list of things I did to get better after bad viral infection.  
 First I looked up the virus I had and some of the common things I used to get my immune system back up. 

I have gone to the doc with a cold and they told me to just go home and take Mucinx. 


Organic Multivitimins 
Make sure it has the Iron and the magnesium 

Grocery List 

Vitamin C 
Immune Boost 
Vitamin B Complex 
Then cough drops 
CBD
Netti Pot 
Sea salt

Antiviral

Holy Basil
Tummeric
L-lysine
MCT oil used for keto diet coconut oil has antibacterial qualities.

Doc Visit when you still have green junk but you can look normal most of the day and your daily steps.  Be sure to download a pedometer. And see how many steps you take a day. When it goes from 20,000 to say. 
8,000 You know you are struggling. 

So the doc gives me ammoxacillan Shit Shit Shit
But I take it !!!
As soon as it's gone green flem back.
 So I change my diet no sugar no yeast +++vitamins +++Enzimes +++antivirals.

This is when I was trying to stay better without any antibiotics the Green goop returned with a vengeance and now antibiotics have taken there tole on my body. Due to the candida. For a second time. 

Think of candida as cancer causing and don't delay if you get a yeast infection to take care of that on top of the super mucus. 

Neti Pot was (use distilled water. )extremely helpful but at the cost of an ear infection. But The cavity rince is so imparative I wish I had just used sea salt instead of the Netti pot brand salt packs they really dried my whole sinus cavity out. So I would use a humidaphire and boil water for few hours. Till the windows fog up lol. 

I also had to end up using my facial exfoliator that vibrates to move that mucus down to drain out. 


Echnesia tea extremely  expensive and can cause diarea but it is extremely helpful at loosening this here unshakeable flem. 
Also dry and cracking lips I had some 

MCT oil put on my coffee to cote my throat and 
Any kind of hot tea is good I read something about certain Enzimes killing the outer virus wall so I checked my cabinet for foods with Enzimes and because the salt was killing me so bad I stated gargling with some soy sauce because the Enzimes seemed to have a great effect on the virus. Most Enzimes are in fermented foods. 


Honey 
Soy sauce 
Avacados 
Ginger 
Miso
Pineapple
 kimchi
Mango
Papaya
Sauerkraut
Kefir
bannana 
Kiwi
Yogert



 Basically I started eating a lot more healthy food. When the doc gives you Antibiotics you have to take preventive measures. So not only can you eat yogert for the clearing up of excess yeast you can also cut down on breads and sugar that turns into garbage in your body feeding the yeast.The food we eat today is not as good for you as it was 20 years ago. Therefore it seems to take a lot more work to get yourself into a state of stong immune system after being sick and taking antibiotics. Monsanto and other companies taken all the nutrients out of seeds that help them to grow. 

This is so that you have to keep buying or buy seeds you cant just throw that seed into water and germinate it . It has been Genetically modified to keep you from making money off their seeds. They literally tried to make it so that no fruits or veggies are able to be regrown but this requires taking quite a lot of nutrients out of the foods. So be sure to take vitamins. Even if you feel like your pee is too expensive. Well its necissary to rebuild your immune system. Remember this when you are taking in fruits and veggis trying to boost your immune system. It will take more than it did before! Also because the virus strains are always changing it makes them harder to treat they are becomming resistant so I used to wait till I was done taking antibiotics before I started using probiotics and now I hold out as long as I can but thats about 3 days. Ok at this point I need to say I am not a doctor I am just me and I like to know and had some time... too much time on my hands.

When your sick as hell and the doc don't give anti vitals to poor folks. Or really at all because they are so expensive and don't help that much. 
That's why all avenues are important because if the virus takes hold you could go onto sepsis and your organs will shut down. 

 

Suppliments Online may not be sold locally.

Cherry Ascerola 



 So you do the research; and its never how you want it to be the truth is always sooo much worse than you ever could have imagined. In college you learn how to find the truth on the net. Now you just have to look at many different sources and this will help you to find the truth. So up until just recently they really it was said there was no way to kill a virus while it was in the body. You can force it to go dormant. By taking Lysine Killing a virus could be dangerous just like killing a cancer cell has it invaded tissues in your lungs in your heart. Can you just kill it then?
I am trying to find out. Probably depends on your type of virus you have.


 In my cancer studies I did note there are some ways to kill cancer and it does not destroy all the cells and there are other cures that do kill off the cells without leaving a structure. 
Meaning if the cancer has encased your cells you need a cure that will cure the cell. Not distroy it. 

There was a man on you tube who killed his own cancer on his nose said it worked great but he had no idea just how painful it would be and he used some kind of folk remedy with black salve and there are just some environments cancer can not survive. so After struggling for months I find this thing about Enzymes can kill the cell lining of a virus. Enzymes.. So I ran to the kitchen googling enzymes and I had soy sauce. So I gargled with it instead of salt and once in addition to salt. I feel like it really did help. Basically I was looking for a way to break down that thick sinus drainage that keeps me from smelling and breathing walking faster and feeling better as well as other things like congestive .. ya know. I have a friend in the hospital right now, I wish I could tell her girl don't drink no sugar and eat a ton of enzymes. 


 Enzimes Honey Enzimes 
 It has helped me alot and I am taking it slow. Viruses also have the worst cures in the hospital. Why you may ask doesnt the dam doc just give me an antiviral??  Big pharma needs to be held to standards "survival standards" OK so back to the things that really help me feel better. Ok Tumeric Curcumin is a spice that is good for the brain and heart healthIt is best to get the NON gMO brands because you will have less toxins to weed out of your system, Holy Basil is really good for the respiratory system. I got some at Wal Mart but I bet the local heath food store probably has some better options to choose from. Also if you are trying to get better limit toxins. Even every day toxins like Fluoride , alcohol, aspartame in most gus and candy , sugars and yeasts of course.I have tried to add more healthy drinks that are antiviral such as Echnesi atea or elderberry I love garlic so I usually do a stew with lots of garlic and onions with red pepper and salt because this will help loosen up that thick congestion and Boiling water on the oven or using a humidifier or both will really help. "It found that those who took high doses of vitamin C supplements doubled their risk of getting a kidney stone. ...

 As we know, kidney stones are often composed of calcium oxalate. When excess vitamin C is excreted by the body, it is usually in the oxalate form, and this may lead to more stones."It is imparitive you take your vitamin C reguardlesss even if you take natural supplements one day and GMO the next Just try to take it everyday. I also got some vitamin C Now the vitamin C is good for you and will straight up kill cancer and build that immune system so good. But make sure if you are taking the best quality you can afford called Cherry Ascrola here is a link about that 

https://www.healthline.com/health/food-nutrition/acerola-cherry 
 More if about kidney stones..


https://www.health.harvard.edu/blog/high-dose-vitamin-c-linked-to-kidney-stones-in-men-201302055854 

 Still have not bought this but I am going to asap But I have been taking Vitamin C and Ginko as well as B COmplex to try to balance the suppliments and not take tooo many at one time When your throut is so dry you are having complete coughing spasms and you can control you unbearable cough I used MCT oil as well as honey in my coffee it not only coted my throat but it also enzimes are good for digestion and the linging of your everything is in gravvve danger so the more oftin you can cote your intestines with enzimes do it!!! tumeric info; 


https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/23179317 
Over here like its a PANDEMIC don't drink all the coffee brah

https://www.thelancet.com/journals/langlo/article/PIIS2214-109X(20)30114-5/fulltext


Monday, March 2, 2020

Personality test fun times


Although I did not really expect that it was fun to think I do teach a lot. https://www.truity.com/ I like to take a personality test every year or so and see how I change. Life has a way of pushing all your buttons. You will either get up and keep moving or you will faulter. The following chart shows your top 3 personality type matches. ENFJ - The Teacher Very Good Match ENFJs are idealist organizers, driven to implement their vision of what is best for humanity. They often act as catalysts for human growth because of their ability to see potential in other people and their charisma in leading others. ENTJ - The Commander Very Good Match ENTJs are strategic leaders, motivated to organize change. They are quick to see inefficiency and conceptualize new solutions, and enjoy developing long-range plans to accomplish their vision. ENTP - The Inventor Good Match ENTPs are inspired innovators, motivated to find new solutions to intellectually challenging problems. They are curious and clever, and seek to comprehend the people, systems, and principles that surround them. Your dominant energy style is Extraversion. Your responses were 66% consistent with a preference for Extraversion, and 34% consistent with a preference for Introversion. As an Extravert, you are primarily focused outward, on the world around you. You seek stimulation and activity and enjoy busy environments. You are energized by activity and by interacting with other people. You tend to be talkative and express yourself easily. want to experience the excitement of life. Extraverts enjoy: Interacting with people Being in busy surroundings Engaging with the outside world Expressing thoughts and feelings Being noticed by others Stimulation and activity Sensing vs. Intuition This dimension describes how you process information. Your preference for Sensing or Intuition indicates whether your style of thinking is straightforward, factual, and concrete, or creative, intepretive, and abstract. Sensors and Intuitives tend to be interested in different kinds of information, with Sensors more interested in facts and details, and Intuitives more interested in ideas. Although this is sweet and interesting it is far from my last scores and I had a little issue on the last page so I cant be sure if this is correct because some boxes I would not really have checked were the only options. SO I am going to take another one.

Monday, January 13, 2020

Reviews for Marianne Season 1


OK first off I loved it but let be real; I really don't review anything I don't love! So if you love mystery and horror you will love this. If you love ocean side mysteirs and old folk tales, you will love this. I really just wanted to paint a beautiful little town by the sea when I saw this and how could anyone ever not love a light house. But I have to say definitely Horror prone.Nightmare Prone and just too dam creepy! Tons of murder and lots of blood. If you can not handle Poltergeist or Some uber creepy plot twists with lots of psychological baggage and or if you have lost a loved one recently this one may pull at the old heart strings. Just when you think what kid of crazy show and I watching the truth is revealed and you are left jaw dropped and totally ready for the next season. OH well, I hope I gave you lots to look forward to without too many spoilers. Oh and flashbacks YAY be sure to check out my art if you enjoyed this review on insta @lynnterrace #liquidartz

Tuesday, January 7, 2020

Review of Penny Dreadful


The Penny Dreadful series was great it had a little bit of everything it had the vamps, cowboys, demons, and frankenstien. Definitely not suitable for children lots of sex scenes and quite twisted relationships. It alos will show you the traps that life had to offer. I feel that the series does have a grifter feel. Surprising family issues arise in the end and as usual the demons are deeper than they appear.

Sunday, January 5, 2020

Review of Season 1 Episode 1 Dracula


As a long time vampire enthusiast and a fictional writer I have to say I love this new series. If you are faint of heart or you just have a weak stomach this is not going to be for you. Mua ha ha With respects to the Nuns I have to say Mrs Agatha has a very un-healthy need for the truth. Very much like Interview with a Vampire it starts off with a nun interviewing a poor man that has spent an unhealthy amount of time in Dracula's Castle. How he escaped is to die for. I cant give away all the details but I will say that I did indeed shed a tear somewhere close to the end of his story. Very good. I love the old school way that the Vampire lore stays true. SPOILERS SPOILED ROTTEN ................................. **************************** ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( I really like how the Agatha goes right up to Dracula and really starts taunting him. Cuts her own hand and starts slinging the blood at him. I have to give this episode a 10 out of 10 and I did not watch any other episodes just yet but since all of holly wood is vacationing and there is absolutely nothing to watch I just thought I would go ahead and throw that out there.

Friday, December 6, 2019

Ketones and balance diet.


https://www.mdanderson.org/publications/cancerwise/the-keto-diet-and-cancer--what-patients-should-know.h00-159223356.html Disclaimer I am not a DOCTOR: I am just a care taker and I have epilepsy so I try to edit the food intake for more healthy beneficial diet . I have had some success. Many people did not really see me too much when I was heavy because I was at home that whole year. But it became appearant that my traditional cardio was not going to kick this extra belly fat as easily as it had in the past. So I have done a lot of research on the keto diet and ketones as well as ketoacidosis. How it is healty for epilepsy and dementia patients to use. So I am feeling like it is all or none. With this diet. And then adding probiotics or somthing to control the gut bacteria that caused dementia. (Kombucha ) The weird thing is that all of these so called "fad diets" have high high acid and not the good kind of acid. There is Alkaline acid and there is regular acids and the alkaline acid prevents cancer (some believe) or should we say makes it harder to grow. And regular acids such as the kinds that you get from red meat and alcohol are going to be more prone to cause cancer. So if you are on the keto diet and you are trying to loose weight then you dont want to take in a lot of fatty foods if you are not withholding the sugars. Because the butter and things of that nature are good for your brain because if you are epileptic or you have dementia it is proven that your brain needs these fats because it is made of fats and it does help. But when you support this your diet your blood gets higher and higher acidic levels and then it does indeed burn the fat especially if you are starving it of carbs. I dont think you should starve your body of sugar or carbs but I also feel like some people have to do what their doc says. Just like A few beers can clean out your kidneys and it can help some things it can cause seizures for me . So for each person it is different. So what can you do if the keto diet is helping but you have not cut out all the sugars. If you get your ketones and you are also taking in sugar. Then your blood is high in acid that can cause cancer and CANCER FEEDS ON SUGAR. Soooo I am drinking my Keto coffee with sugar and I feel like I am skating on thin ice here. Ooops But I am not diabetic. so it should not cause any issues. I am going to eat some citric acids to balance my diet. Most doctors do not believe that alkaline foods can cure cancer. well I feel like it may cost the docs a lot of money to admit that there are soooo dam many cures for cancer just out of reach. All of them having side effect and even deadly side effects but so does the radiation the docs suggest. I am once again NOT a doctor but I have seen people I love take both roads to healing cancer and both are no longer with us. So NO I do not believe there is any 100% fool proof cure I do believe not be synical and saying things to justify your actions. Like Oh everything causes cancer. sure does but lets not take it all in ok. I think that we all need to maybe push for society to have a better attutude toward solid changes. Like having their own green house attached to the kitchen that can help ensure that the food you are getting has not been genetically modified and sprayed with pesticides. The laws alone protect the cancer manufacturing Trash that is societys money making infernal loop of death. I am epileptic and I choose to take in ketones regularly (or at least sleep my 8 hours and not drink coffee with sugar right away. ) Each hour after 8 hours of fasting your body burns your existing fat if you do not intake carbs or sugar This is how you get your ketones naturally. Here is some additional info if you are a dementia patient or care taker. https://www.alzheimers.net/how-ketones-can-combat-alzheimers/ If you are epileptic ... https://charliefoundation.org/epilepsy-mechanisms/ I did not get to read all of this article so please do your research well and talk to your doc. Lets get real here taking in fat in your coffee and paying an arm and a let for MCT oil basically just helps get things moving in the intestine. Of course this is good for digestion. But it is easy to eat some greens. THe question is enen after paying and arm a leg for Kombucha and keto coffee and all these higly acidic things to definatly help you loose weight you could do the same with organic foods. Although just because the FDA says it is organic does not mean it is free of pesticides.You can google the most common pesticides and then google the foods you eat. For example your fav brand of cereal ... You can google Tests of glyphosphate in "my fave breakfast bar brands" .People are getting sick all the time blaming inflammation on everything from gluten to carbs. What is it really Well you know I started a diet diary and cut that crap out of my diet. What about keto and heart health well I got to get ready for work but you know that is what we are all worried about here is an article but never just read one article and trust it if you have hear troubles you need to read about it everyday. https://healthblog.uofmhealth.org/keto-diet-and-heart-health-perfcon Start a facebook page that is all about that and facebook will pops up notifications telling you to make posts and this is how a firm foundation of information is really set in stone. Every thing you read check for what the critics are saying.. It is imparitive. SOrry for all the messsy Grammar (sis) Love and heath to all my friends. So you can buy strips to monotor your ketones and make sure if you are a diabetic you do not start getting too many ketones and dangerous levels can cause ketoacidosis and your stomach acid will stop breking down your food. This is why you need a balanced diet there is not any such thing as a special recipe to end all issues. But we all need to eat citric acid (alkaline foods ) and balance all this acid. If you are diabetic or if it runs in your family...be sure to read this, https://www.healthline.com/health/ketosis-vs-ketoacidosis

Tuesday, November 19, 2019

Vampires Cove


Chapter 1 The Catastrophe

Every year the whole family would go on a vacation at the Lazy River Ranch in the deep Louisana swamps. The cell phones could not even pick up service way out there. Our family lived for places like this. The ranch was way off the grid. Many people do not have a lot of technology in the middle of the swamp.  We had some forms of communication that were completely outdated and we had to take advantage of what we could use. Deep in the Louisiana Swampland. This year, Keely and Colby were there with us and we were on what we thought to be a normal family vacation. They were both in College at the time but were off for spring break. The Lazy River Ranch was basically a gator farm and a tourist attraction for hunters. When we were young. My cousins would come and we would tell scary stories on the dock about Gators and Ghosts. Some would tell stories of the Mississippi Swamp monsters although the monsters sounded more like the kind of creature you would think was a werewolf or a Yetti they had very vampire like qualities.

   

 One tale never let me sleep well again. It was about the gators and how they pull their victims under to drown them. I had many dreams that I was running through the swamp and got stuck as the gators were trying to catch me running up on me and snagging my heal in  their jaw. I never actually had this happen to me but we did have a pet gator once and we ended up having to let it go back into the wild . This last vacation was one the we will never forget. 


We were telling scarey stores all night. They would tell scarey tales about the gators in the water and make comments about the gators and the way they creep up on  you. The water was covered in a green algae and it was easy to see if there was an alligator in the water if you were looking for one. One day I was on the sand bar and I was catching some rays when this fish just jumped up high. I looked and I could see a glistening eye across the way it looked like a marble floating on the water. We went fishing that day in the canoe and Devin had got out of the boat, he was in his fishing gear and was stepping across the water on top of some huge rocks.  When the water started to have ripples coursing towards us. The swamp began to fill with swarming bugs. The vibrations became more violent and the boat starts to tip from side to side. Then the flood waters came and pushed forth. It's an earthquake here in the south? Tremors kept jolting the boat. The water is accumulating in the bottom of the boat we start to frantically paddle toward the rocks where Devin was trying to get back to the boat. I said, “It must be an earthquake.”

Little did I know that deep below the earth there was lava brewing and the intensity had become too much for the surface of the marsh to contain. The lava pushed through the muck of the swamp floor making the swamp water start to boil like a hot tub. Devin sees this phenomena and leans over to look at the water. All of the sudden he falls in the water face first. He was swimming toward the boat and he grabbed the side of the boat and rolled into the boat. Unfortunately that filled the boat even more full  of water and with more weight in the boat the with water. Devin and I had been through a ton of horrific plights in our life but, this in the swamp with bubbling swamp land was nothing I had ever prepared for. I blame it on the fracking but who knows what could have caused this. When Devin got to the boat and stepped into the boat the excess weight brought the boat down so low that it was almost level with the water. So we started bailing out the water and the fish and swamp creatures were flopping around. Then some of the fish came to the surface dead. Dead fish and little bugs floating on the top of the water made us both start paddling. That was a day I thought we would not survive; but just as we were all standing in the boat expecting it to be sucked into the water any moment the vibrations stopped. Every creature in the water was turning, whirling and jumping frantically if they were still alive. We all stood up because we were preparing for the boat to sink with us in it. Then the swamp was still, there was a small pulse and then there was a volcanic eruption not a single massive eruption but a lot of small eruptions. Looked like tiny islands forming in the swamp. Then we started to sit back down and paddle to land we saw that the alligator cage had been torn to pieces and the alligators were getting out. 


 At this point we realized that land was not the safest place to go, especially since we had not fed the gators yet. So we started paddling toward the house. All I could think about was the structure of the lake house and if it was still strong enough to hold up and keep the alligators out. Just as we are almost there the alligators were coming for us so Devin grabbed a rope and lassoed the dock. The rope was soaking wet so water went all in our eyes and we all started to pull the boat closer to the house. Devin got out first and grabbed the gun off the porch just as the alligators reached the boat he shot it and we all made it safely. I will never forget the smell of cooking swampland. It was like sulfur straight from hell. We were on the dock and pulling the ladder up and Devin lassoed the dead gator and blood from the alligator poured out into the water making the algae and the water blood red. The smell brought more hungry gators toward the house. That night we had gator for dinner. Later that night we were outside on the deck when we saw the first swamp monster that we had ever seen. The monster was 7 feet tall and it was attacked by the swarm of alligators that had been hiding under the house waiting for us to try to leave. I guess it was injured during the earthquake because I could not figure any other reason why this yeti looking thing would come out toward us unless it was hungry. The tales of swamp monsters were usually just to make more money on the tourism business but this was the first time I saw it for myself. We all started taking pictures of this massive swamp monster fighting off the alligators. It picked up one of the gators its giant claws went into the gators neck and it was gusseling the gator blood like it was not big thing. Until it realized it was far outnumbered. When it dove into the water and swam off. I could see the water moving and the bubbles coming up out of the water. Some of the spikes on its back were coming up out of the water like a shark's fin. I put my hand on my heart and looked at Devin he said, “It’s ok”. It is gone and my son Benjamin said, “We could have taken him Dad.” They were not babies anymore, but they were still my babies at heart, no matter what. The swamp house was never the same and it needed to be rebuilt it always leaked and formed huge puddles on the side of the house that was no longer level. We decided to leave the crazy Ranch and call it a night we all jumped into the boat and started paddling out of there. After a long drive we finally we make it home but we are still pretty shook up from the whole experience. We turn on the news and the earthquake had caused some cracking of the roads. 


Lots of people were seeing strange lights.  Bright lights were thought to be swamp fairies, the men sometimes would say it was our dead loved ones or even God. What is the light being and where did it come from. More importantly where did it go. It disappeared right into thin air. I heard many stores of the lights that come across like some kind of alien but I oftin wondered if it was my Guardian Angel or maybe some other misguided angel just out playing pranks.


Tuesday, September 3, 2019

Sick as hell


So I am here making a diary of my diet and health because I am sick as hell,. Breakfast Bannana Donut pumpkin colored seasonal Water Lunch Salad Lemonade Dinner Chipolte Chicken /mustard sandwich with faux cheese crackers 2 cups ginger tea with Pepper woke up sick as shit today and stayed up too late last night still got my full 7 hours not bad oops walked a long long way yesterday threw up at work twice had to leave early

Tuesday, August 27, 2019

Nostalgia


Who knows why we have such a strange connection to random material possessions or places. It is the memory that is attached to the item or place of which Nostalgia is born. I was always nostalgic even as teen I had a box full of Barbies that I absolutely would not let Mom sell Of course some how she did indeed get rid of them but often times I wonder if it wasent fot the maingy landlord that basically just threw out all my childhood notes and letters from when there were less technological ways of communicating I would have boxed and boxes of books letters and tons of scrappy art.I had all kinds of strange things that could be used as a sled just incase snow came and of course my own sled or disc shaped thing with handles on it. I could not quite understand the reason why older people had so much junk in their basement or attic. I Love the idea of going to the attic and getting out old clothes that were from another time or another generation. If I had an attic I would have to pack up the old fashons and label them 90's or 80's. Seeing all these old 80's clothes reminds me of the fugly color of appliances that we h had to live with for a very long time until the old Putrid green 60's colored carrots and the other things are not nostalgic the ones that just really setteled in for decades like hamburger helper YUK UM no NO more not ever no nostalgia and hell no to all those annoying keyboard sounds from the 80's. Someone save me. So there is no in between you either have a Pickers heart and soul or you don't. But some times we all just want to see that one comfortable thing or place that takes us back to day one. Scavenger hunts, McDonalds toys, treasure maps, hanging the tire swing by yourself. sliding down a mountain with your thick boots on and durt and dust trailing behind you. Moving around your furniture and not telling anyone. laughing sooo hard your stomach muscles hurt and your tears burn. Painting on the walls when MOM said UM NO When you have lost a lot of loved ones every little thing they loved becomes nostalgic. Past the point of pain there is where the nostalgia is born. Once your have built a little bridge in your heart and you have friends that tell you to breath JUST BREATHE JUST BREATHE like Mom used to say Take three deep breaths Some times you just cant tell people what is really on your mind because if you say it it will insite the tears that you can not stop What is nostalgia for you?